* The retarded shooter wrote his "manifesto" (closer resemblance to random schizo bullshit and typical troon self-pity/hatred) in transliterated (terribly) Eng-Rus in handwriting that makes an English teacher weep. It was graciously transcribed back into Latin by the KiwiFarms:

[inside cover]
To improve one's life [ru]
Part one [en]
Way out
umu
HATRED [ru]

[page 1]
05.23.2025
Development of thoughts
I have had thoughts of mass murder for a long time. I am very conflicted, and writing this journal. I need to get my thoughts out without getting put on a watchlist haha! This journal is not gona be organized or easy to read [you don't say faggot -S]. It will be a brain barf of thoughts. Lately I have been entranced into the zetls [illsgible -S] of mass shooters. I had known about these events for ages, even at the time being morbidly obsessed. As of late, I have really let myself go, indulging into every mass shooting video I can find. My interest in specifically school shooting started, I think, in seventh grade. I remember one day, I was talking w Valerie. She was my crush and I was with her and another kid. I asked them, "if there was a school shooting, where would you hide?" I don't remember why I asked that but it seemed to scare them, they laughed it off to be but later told adults.

[page 2]
I got in big trouble for that but not too big! I basically promised I didn't mean anything. I got [remark unclear] suspended for a week I think. These thoughts never went away but would be suppressed. I remember, every school I went to, I had some fantasy at some point or another of shooting up my school, even every job. When I was caught in seventh grade, I don't remember ever talking to a therapist. They basically made sure I was not a threat, then locked me in a meeting room when I was at school for that week. ILLEGIBLE_ALL_CAPS_WORD I think that made me stew in my thoughts and then solidified (????) some feelings of hatred and malice in my head, I think ythat committing a mass shooting is not the right thing to do. I can NOT myself do something like this. But too fucking damn it feels so good to indulge in these thoughts. I had so many reasons why I cannot do it. I can't do it to my family. I love them and they love me, I simply can't do that to them.

[page 3]
I will die!
Another huge reason, ILLEGIBLE, is my digital footprint. ILLEGIBLE SENTENCE I wouldn't want people finding my skay [skype??? dunno, illegible -S] clips lmao xxxxx My clips ILLEGIBLE so ass and I would git [sic -S] fucking ROASTED! HO also I don't really think my name [he spells it `nime` -S] sounds like a school shooter name lol. Robyn Westman? ILLEGIBLE and my face isn't crazy enough lol. I am not enough of a freak ILLEGIBLE anyway. For that PEOPLE that and this (????), ILLEGIBLE, hopefully not, I am writing this in this way so that ILLEGIBLE don't ILLEGIBLE freak out. I really just want a place to put my thoughts. I can't talk to a therapist or family cos I will ILLEGIBLE be reported and put on a watchlist! BADNEWS! I feel like I might already be on some kind of list due to my ILLEGIBLE ILLEGIBLE of mass murder and playlist (?) content. I recently watched the films ELEPHANT, CLASS and ILLEGIBLE ILLEGIBLE ILLEGIBLE. I basically skipped the whole movies and just watched the murder scenes. I don't?/just? try to ILLEGIBLE my content (?) ILLEGIBLE from
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[page 4, with satanic symbols on top]
SHIT[en]
say, "fuck it", I fucking hate bugs. Hate them. I am sitting at a park to journal and waste time and I am getting pestered. I can't live in this world! Fuck! Fuck! Hate this world. I made the mistake of asking Theresa if she wanted to hang out and then instantly regretted it. I am just doing my civic duty trying to talk to all my friends and family before I die. I don't want to hang out with that adult baby and her spaz dogs. I just can't take being outside in this bugs anymore. I can't fucking wait to die! One more week! I will!
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKK
Words can't describe my pain. Capital letters are not loud enough to capture the screams I want to cry out. I am in so much pain I can't live [word crossed out] FUCKFUCKFUCK FUCK[en] KILL KILL. Major depression. Misanthropy. Self loathing, self hatred, suicidal! God, Theresa is such a cringe baby. I hated being at her house. KILL! I am surprised she hasn't kiled herself already. I am a sick freak. Freak, kill yourself, Robyn. I am the killer. I am a sick fuck. It's all my fault. No one is to blame but me. Stupid me. I hate myself. I cannot live as myself. Robyn Westman, mass shooter. Disgrace. Shame. Six more days. Death to me. Death to this world. Forget me. Kill me. You won't forget me.

[page 5]
08.21.25
Fuck it all. Fuck this world. I am planning on going to the range today to finish sighting in my red dot. I won't live until I am satisfied. I have some concerns about my new sling setup. With its new positioning, I am unable to bring the muzzle up to my head. I would need to take the gun off or onclip, that concerns me as I might need to shoot myself at any given time. I will do some more testing and see if it's worth it to keep it in the new position. I am pissed I can't find my monocular for seeing the target while I sight in the rifle. I might just go by some cheap one from REI[en] or something. I don't want to ask to borrow anyone's. Fuck everything and everyone. Oh my god the day draws ever closer. I WILL DIE SOON. MY LIFE IS OVER. FREEDOM! PEACE! AGONY AND TORMENT! PAIN, PEACE, LOVE, Death, Immortality. Fuck. FIVE DAYS LEFT. Nothing I want to do in this days except prep for the mission. The range will only take a few hours, then it's back home to rot, all I do is fall apart and then I break and then I die there akk U do it fall apart then break and then die. I fall I break and I die. That's all I do: is fall apart and then I break and then I die I fall and break and die. I will die. Broken. Why am (unclear) I so broken? Why? DIE :):):(:((: KILL. I am less than dirt. Less than sperm. I am death. I am death. Death is me. I will meet myself in death (written below in a margin: "like a bitch"). KILL YOURSELF. KILL KIDS.

[page 6]
08.22.25
Yesterday was productive. First I went to Stock and Barrel and I was trying to sight in the red dot when I came to the conclusion that it was just not going to work. That's what I get for cheaping out. They only had a few optics there and the cheapest was like $350 so I went to Modern and then had a much larger selection. I got a nice primary arms red dot for only $120. Wow![en] What an improvement! I put it on my rifle and got it zeroed in like five minutes! That bitch shoots lasers now! Spot on! I am so happy I got a nice optic. I can pretty much buy whatever I need now. I got paid my last paycheck today and I have about five hundred dollars and four days left. Also yesterday I filmed my journals. I hate having it in my phone but I think I am close enough to the day that it will be okay. I also wanged [sic -S] my sling setup back to how it was. I can't have my sling prevent me from quickly shooting myself in the head. Stick to what you know. Stick to how you have trained. Remember your training. I fall apart. I break. I die. That's all I ever do. It's sad, isn't it. I don't know if I will ever see my family again. Maybe my papa in the next days but... yes, probably not. I might not see Abby again. O well. I am already dead. My god, Phil is unbearably depressed. It's so hard to be around him. He thinks his life is hard now? Just you fucking wait. I can't fucking wait. Just sleep and the day will be here. Sleep and waste your fleeting seconds. DIE, BITCH!

[page 7]
08.23.25
arabic script in margin on top of page
Life in turmoil. Koyaanisqatsi [en, sic -S] yesterday. I watched that movie because I felt I needed to see it before I die. I had seen some of it when I was very little. It was very contemplative and impactful to watch it now with my current mindset. I recommend you should watch it. HUmanity is the pestilence. The plague. Humanity is overrated. I am the filth of my species. I am the decay. [most normal tranny. -S] I will contribute to the collapse of society. I will fulfull my mission. I have only four days left. TO cry, to waste, to fall apart, to break, and then die. Give me peace, please, I will be dirt and food for flies. I will not be alone, tho. I will take many with me. Take this, all of you, and eat of it. For this is my body, which will be given up for many. It has been a long time since the last mass shooting, and in America that means a few days lmao. There was a hoax the other day that really got my hopes up. It was also at an orientation mass which is really similar to my plans haha. I hope I get to see one more before I die. Keeping my fingers crossed. I love my brothers and sisters. I am so sorry for doing this to them. I wish I wasn't in this amazing, respectable family. Please don't bother them. Leave them alone and let them move on with their lives. They had no knowledge of and nothing to do with my plans. I am glad they all have loving partners. I hope this doesn't break any of their love of relationships. I don't know what else to do today. Maybe I should go see my papa. Fuck! He is out of town too. All my fucking family is out of

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town. I need to be around someone that isn't Phil! And again, it's me who has to fucking reach out to be with people. Nobody ever hits me up on to hang. Nobody ever wants to hang out with me. I am a worthless loser. I texted my old boss Andrew and at least he is down to hang out on Tuesday. Hehehe. I just bought another gun just for fun. Just to make me feel something. I bought a five-shot .38 special revolver an INA Tiger [en]. It was $200 and looked pretty. I think I will keep it in my car or backpack in case I need to kill myself when I don't expect it. I don't think that it will ever be fired by me. I just wanted to blow my money before I die. It sure is a beautiful piece. Also .38 special is huge! I think I should try illegally having a gun on me in public, just to have that feeling. I don't want to have that feeling on the day be such a shock! I am still going to be fuckign terrified but i can do this. I will do this. I also wanted a second handgun in case I got pulled over or otherwise confronted in my car on the day. I was worried I wouldn't be able to access any of my guns while seated in the van. I will probably have the revolver in my lap and toss it under the seat or overhead before I go in case anyone goes to the car and use it against me. Fuck me I am going to die. Die. Permanent death. Forever. Forfeiture of life! Throw away the gift. Pass away. I am tired of pain. The good times of life are good but not that good. The bad sides are eternal pain.
[doodles on bottom margin]

[page 9]
cool s, dollar sign, "69 most ignored" on top margin
O my god, I just looked through my old tik tok. There is some fucking hilarious shit on there. I think I will just leave that stuff to be lost to time. If you were lucky enough to have witnessed my salary [sic -S] content, you are blessed, maybe. One or two vids will be on the new instagram but yes, a lot will be lost. So much value in my life will be lost. I sure was funny as fuck haha. All it took was my mental deterioration lmao, you're welcome. Soon my day will come. I will not falter in the face of death. I no longer fear the razor guarding my heel. My flaws burn through my skin like demonic flames from hell. My scars are live evidence being mailed to the JoJ [wut? -S]. I will celebrate for stepping on broken glass and sleeping on stomach soaked flurs [sic -S]. I will one day learn to fly into the stars. My closet is a graveyard. If you were to get what you deserve, you would know what the barrel of my shotgun tastes like. All that glitters is not gold but it's still fucking beautiful. Fuck! Death comes. Not even ghosts are this empty. Finding shelter in my larynx. A little trauma can be illuminating, and I am shining like the sun. I am not who I thought I was anymore. I don't want this life I live. Ask me if I am happy. Stupid motherfucking question. Days looking grim. Goosebumps on my skin. Hope the reaper coming. Hope my demise beings. This is the end. Fuck everything. I am done. Leave me in the street to rot. Do not bury me under the cherry tree. Save your love and care for those still alive that deserve it. Just forget me.
"69 nice" on bottom margin

[page 10]
08.24.25
I don't want this. I want to be in my mother's arms while she cradles my head and sings me to sleep in the rocking chair under the moonlight. I want to be there for my family to hug them and console them when they ask me why I DID THIS. I want to turn this movie of return to my life. BUt that way I dream for is the movie. I have only one way to what (???) this pain off. This life has no escape or pause. The story will end for me. No laughter, no sorrow. Nothing. I just want to be held and to be warm one last time. It is far too late. There is no return. I am so sorry. I wish I had never been born to save you all the pain. I know that I must sleep. I know I must draw my last breath and what (???) my eyes for one last time. I wish I could say all this and more to my loved ones before I go. I can only hope they feel my love for them as they move on. Fuck. My life is over. The curtains close. The end. Fuck. I am sorry. So sorry. I love you all. Forget me. Wonderful. I just put all my writings and funny little messages on my guns and gear. It's a mix of irony and legit views. Now I really can't back down. Can't shoot them anymore except on the day. If anyone saw my guns it would be game over instantly! Fuck I can't fucking wait! Fucking two days left. Oo, wild. Things are gonna get easier. Death will be peace. I didin't ask to be born, and you didn't ask to die. Tough shit. LIfe isn't fair. FUck youre feelings. Fuck it all. My body is ready. My mind is ready.

[page 11]
08.25.25
this is me
[spiral drawing] MuammarGaddafi * Fy8ml [en]
There are no more tears left for me to cry. I am dead to this world and to myself. Forget me, move past me. I am not worthy of love [no shit! -S]. Not worthy of food or comfort. I know I will suffer all through life. I will choose my path and give a big "FUCK YOU [en]" to the universe. I will become a part of the history if evil. I went to the store Sheels [sic -S] today. Hot damn what a crazy place. Their selection of guns and accessories is humongous. Great prices as well. I got some active IR PRO, some slim headphones. I also got some shorty slugs and a short mag for the rifle to keep in my pocket. I am very glad I got the Active Pro. I want to be able to hear any attackers or distractions. Also the screams of my victims hahaha! O this is so scarby [sic -S]. I will remain strong. I will stand firm and not give up. I will fulfill my fucking mission! It has all come together. I made this mess and I will NOT clean it up. I will die. I will end soon. Perhaps I will see my father tomorrow. I feel I should deserve to see him. He deserves that. I love my papa. I am sad I have to remove myself from him. U an glad I do not have to go through the grief of his death. U an a selfish bastard. Why would have that among my family, I would be the first to die. First to being great shame. I will curse my family name. Sorry guys. One more day to remmeber all my life, fuck!
2002-2005 short, innit? [en]

[page 12]
08.26.25
Fucking hell, here we are on my last day! I am uploading up the shit today. Youtube is being difficult on my phone. It doesn't like the long video. I will upload this shit anywhere I can. God here it is, my final day! Fuck! Ahhh <:|. Fuck. Goodye. Forget me. I am ready. I can do this. I will. I will [ru]. Death and screams. Pain and torment. Tomorrow! No capture, no surrender. Death and peace. The final sleep. I am so sorry. I am tired. I don't want this life. I want to die. I want to bring pain and hate on this world before I die. Fuck this world. Nothing matters. Fuck it up. I am very concerned my journals will be taken down before they get spread as much as I want, o well. I can't care about that now. I jsut need to go on my mission. What do I do on my last day on earth? I have no clue. Twas the first day of school at Annunciation yesterday. I saw on their instagram a bunch of teachers that I recognize from when I went there. I hope I kill Mister Nichols, he is such a beloved teacher there! Okay, I got all my stuff packed up for tomorrow. I am ready. I got my videos up loaded [sic -S] too. This is really scary. I hope I don't have feds at my dor tomorrow morning. Fck I wish this wasn't me. Who I am. I miss Bobby [en]. Poor me, so sad. How I am become death. Stupid corny bitch. I hate this world. Burn my body. I just hid a bunch of bullets all over Phil's house. Just for chaos. Just to be a menace.

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[top margin] HeeHeeHooHOOHaHaHooHaHoHoHoHe[en]
FEAR ME. I AM GOD. That's not true. I am a loser. A freak. The world is better off without me but it will remember me. I am insane! Competent, but insane. Racism is wrong but so am I. [left margin: "nigger" [en]] KILL YOURSELF. Fuck it. I love the smell of gunpowder. NYGGÆR [ru]. PSYCHO[en]! PSYCHO[en]! KILL! KILL! KILL! [en] HAHAHAHAHA.
bad doodle of gun on margin
SICK FUCK [en]
SICK FUCK [en]
Murderer [en]
HAHAHAHAHAH[ [en]
skull doodle
penis doodle
Villain [en]
Ok it's ALL OVER. IT'S ALL OVER. I fall apart. I break and then I die. I don't know if I have the strength to see my papa. O hope he knows I love him. I had a good life. Fuck you all! Peace. This last day. I am in so much pain. Torment. KILL ME. HAHA. Falling apart. I am falling apart. Good thing it all ends tomorrow. I can't put on with this physical form. Lights out. No more feeling. No more pain. I am a cringe ass nay nay baby. A weak little bitch. Murder. Death. No respawn. No pause. Game over.
[shows middle finger over page]

[page 14]
face doodle
letterform doodle: "NIGGO"
smiley doodle
I subloaded all my mags so I hopefully have no issues inserting full mags on a closed bolt. Use your shit like tools. Use with purpose! O god. Kill me. Kill yourself. VERY SAD. No shootings. [if you remember, he wanted to see a mass shooting before the date he set for himself. -S] I guess I will have to be next. Big news tomorrow. I am going to be top headlines and that will hopefully give inspiration to others to follow. Hehehe. Oh my god. Fuck I am so fucking scared. Fuck. I am not going to be able to sleep tonight. I am freaking out. I don't want to hurt my family like this. My breath is shallow and my stomach in knots. Just breathe. Breathe and focus on the end of your suffering. Tomorrow. Tomorrow. It all ends. I will do this. I can do this. Please let me have good RNG [en]. | Well fuck. HERE WE GO. Sleep time. I had a good visit with Andrew [his former boss -S], it was really special and I cherish his selflessness. I almost wanted to abandon my plan. Haha :\. Life just goes on and on! It just gets worse. AND EVERYONE SUFFERS. I also saw my papa. I love him. This will break him. He is a good man. Phil is going to be up in the morning too |:\. I would be able to sneak around him, it's like Christmas Eve! I am so fucking anxious! There are bugs in my skin. I AM CRAZY! O MY GOD! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME! Too late. Time for rest. It's time to [frame/grave doodle] REST in PEACE.

[page 15]
08-27-2025
O my god. I ambeing punished by god. I got fucking molested by bedbugs in the night! I am coward in welts. I look like Fredy Kruger [sic], o my fucking god. No more sleep. I can't sleep anyway, holy shit this is insane! WTF?[en] I can't deal with this. I HAVE TO END IT! It's 5:30 AM. Few hours left. Kill me now. I am so sorry. I will burn in hell for this. I love to destroy myself. I really hate myself. I am not going to do well. I am going to pussy out and end it quickly. Fuck GTA6 :) [en]
The End [en]
[heart doodle] Robin [en]
I'm SO SORRY [en]
Goodbye [ru]
face doodle

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